I have been mulling over the idea of starting a second blog. The reason behind this is that I have been struggling to find a theme/vibe for this blog. Do I want it to be about Canada, my views, parenting, humour, world issues? I felt like this new born baby of a blog was showing signs of bi-polar issues. One minute I was giving advice on doggies and the next pouring out my heart about personal trauma. Should I focus on Canadian stories? It is called Rantings of a Canadian Girl. I do love, love, love all things Canadian! Or, do I want to address issues around the world and give this Canadian girls take on things. Then again, this could be an awesome personal outlet, my own therapy sessions. Do I want to be flippant and witty or deep and introspective? Which is it?
Then it hit me……I want it to be all of that because I, am all of that. I am witty, if I may say so myself. I am always reflecting and trying to better myself. I do have things I need to get out in some way or another. I do love my country and want to talk about it. I am interested in what is going on in the world around me and I do have an opinion on it. Why then, wouldn’t my blog have all of these components? Why wouldn’t I allow every facet of my personality to show through in my posts?
Ah, but there it is, my self esteem and people pleasing issues. I know I don’t have a huge following but there are people reading this. People that I don’t, for whatever reason, want to disappoint. You, I don’t want to disappoint you. We may have never met or even have had a conversation but as per my own particular brand of neurosis, I am worried about what you think.
So, I am going for a main theme to my one and only blog of, therapy. My working through of my issues by deciding to….wait for it….be me! Me in all of my crazy complexity. On days when I feel goofy you will get a humourous post. On days when I am sad, I may pour my heart out to you. If something catches my eye-ooh shiny-that is what you will get. That is the most honest and healthy thing I can do. It is what I need to do, for me. No one says you have to read it….but I hope you do.