So, I’m sitting here tonight with red rimmed eyes and a pounding headache because of a song. Let me explain.
I was happily watching one of my favourite t.v. shows – the Voice and a contestant, who I previously thought was very overrated, began to sing a song that strikes a deep chord in me. A song about losing someone you love and the conflicting emotions that brings on. Sadness, hurt and anger. The song is a Miranda Lambert and Blake Shelton hit called Over You. It’s a very personal song for Blake since its about losing his older brother in a car accident when Blake was 14. To compound the depth of meaning for him it was his father who told him to write a song about his brother, his father who recently passed away. Wow. Just knowing the back story is enough to make the song pack a punch. For me, the song is about loss but the person is still alive. To me it’s about someone I love who wasn’t there for me when I really needed him. The lyrics –
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
-perfectly convey my anger at the betrayal and the devastation I feel at losing that relationship. Hence, the red rimmed eyes and resulting headache.
It led me to think about how music can really effect a person. On a bad day a catchy upbeat pop song can brighten my mood. A stressful moment can be eased with beautiful vocals in a ballad or gorgeous classical music. A catchy country song can make me want to get a group of friends together for a good ole drink on! Music can intensify my current mood or completely turn it around. Just hearing certain songs can transport me right back in time to the moment I first heard it. Young MC, It Takes Two,immediately brings to mind the hot new neighbour boy smiling at me from his front porch when I was 13. Whitney Houston belting, I Will Always Love You, always makes me think of the first of my friends to get married and how at 19 I thought I was long past due for my own nuptials. SNAP , The Power, makes me think of the amazing time I had camping on Sauble beach with the love of my life. Even a, Barney the dinosaur, ditty can bring a smile to my face because it reminds me of how incredibly happy time spent at home with my boys when they were little made me. Or it can make me choked up missing those days. Equally powerful emotions.
I realized, my life actually has a soundtrack. It’s going to be great for the movie which shall of course star Angelina Jolie!